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blog number twooo..where to start, where to start. my best friend is outside bringing in hardwood flooring for our kitchen..yeaaa baby! its a dark walnut (or cherry,who knows) that's going to look amazing times ten against my 'helio glow' aka buttercup-ish, aka yellow-ish walls.. i'm uber excited, can you tell?! i should be out helping this sexy lover of mine 

 but instead i'm prego worn out from rearranging closet and drawers and winter clothes that took up 57,899,302 huge rubbermaid bins..so i'm sitting here writing as dallas babe is curled up in me on my right side taking a little snooze..  

our journey for our Little began last summer.. we never sat down and had a 'let's begin a family' talk..it just came up one night as we were sitting in the drive thru line at DQ. romantic i know,right..i don't even remember how it got started or what was said but that night sticks in my mind vividly, maybe it was just the chocolate covered strawberry blizzard that makes it a memorable night for me.. regardless we decided that it was time for a lil babe around the household... we told people we weren't trying but we weren't preventing..how dumb.. if you're not preventing then technically you're trying.. so we prayed God would give us a baby..

  

                 NOT MY WILL BUT THINE-----

we were met with quite a few struggles.. actually only one. i had a continuous UTI from april all through summer 2009..my lovely kidneys and urinary tract were failing us miserably and had me in the ER and to specialists like it was my job. after surgeries and biopsies, they discovered i had Interstitial Cystitis..painful and miserable and was a constant battle until i met dr.costa **sound the hallelujah chorus** yes i was still popping pills like i was a druggie but i was pain free and my bladder wall was healing. i look back now and realize why God didn't allow us to become pregnant right away. i had x-rays and scans and surgeries and was on 5 different pills that i wouldn't be able to cope without,yet wouldn't be able to be on if i was pregnant..

halloween passed-no baby..thanksgiving-no baby..Christmas and new years-no baby...what in the worldddddd?? i was frustrated..i was sad..i was worried there was something wrong..that maybe because of my kidney issues and all the meds and scans and scar tissue from surgery, that maybe i couldn't get pregnant.. and this was a concern that my doctors wanted to look further into.. everyone asking,so when are you guys going to start a family.. just shoot me in the head?! i wanted to wear a shirt that says we practice every stinking night but apparently i'm not prego yet so quit asking and mind your own business.. wow writing that had all that anger and emotion flood back and i want to throw something..yes i have anger issues.. back to the subject..

we weren't getting pregnant and when i want something i want it NOW,RIGHT MEOW! =) so my specialists sent me to fertility specialists.. my appointment was january 5,2010.. i went,we talked,they wanted to run tests because they were aware that with everything i had gone through the previous summer i could possibly have complications..they scheduled us for at least 9 different tests in the month of january alone, i have them all still written down neatly in my john deere calendar tucked away in my drawer as a memory of PURE FRUSTRATION!!

to get to the main point of this lil story..

                            january 7,2010..7am..i woke up,threw on some sweats,had a full bladder but did NOT pee and drove my little self to giant eagle made a purchase and then to work..

took a pregnancy test..

forgot i took it.

came back 20minutes to see 2 lines...WHATTTT...

**chug bottle of water**, **wait a few minutes**,**pee on stick number two**

...NOO FLIPPING WAYYY..two lines again?! i couldn't get enough pee for stick number three but after two positives, i'm pretty sure the third would've been a positive as well

off to Quest i went to have a blood test.......